Life.
This one time at life.
So if you follow me here, you were probably my friend on facebook. And if you have noticed that I no longer friends with you, it is not because of you, its me. Ive been, well, dealing with some stuff. So one day I just completely deleted facebook, deleted some people from my phone, sort of...shut out everything.
Its important for me to be honest with people. To believe in people, but for those people to be who they really are. Not fake, to not take from others what they are not willing to give back. I think of my life as a garden. A beautiful garden that I let be overgrown with weeds. I was hiding in the weeds and the artificial beauty. But NO more.
Ive decided to take a more organic, involved approach at gardening. Ive cleared out the weeds. Ive made my gardening spot a little smaller, more manageable. But it is my garden that is going to be amazing!
Life is funny. Ive been down roads I didn't even know existed. Roads that have taken me to amazing places, some taking me right back to where I am from, and some that should have do not enter signs. But you never know how things are, whats around the next corner or over the hill. You just have to go. Thankfully enough I have be given the kind of spirit that loves to wonder, that is not afraid to ask for directions and is even willing to turn around and go back the way I was coming.
Im learning how to let go, let things be and just enjoy what I have. To not ask why I enjoy it or wonder when the bottom will fall out. Now if I can just concur my fear while flying, I will be set!
Im going to try and post here a little more than I have been and I am even considering coming back to facebook....we will see.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Holy 2012
WoW, its been a while since I posted here. I would like to say a lot has gone on, and maybe it has, for me its life. It always seems to get in the way or just simply sneak up on me. Well thankfully we have made it through another holiday season. I was so thankful to spend all three, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years with my Tad. Its been a really, really long time since we have been together for all three in the same year. :) Not something that most wives can say. I love our life though, the way it is - is the way that it works for us. Sure there are tough times and some times we are smooth sailing, I truly try to not take advantage of either.
So the beginning of a new year is supposed to be the time that we set all these goals and limits for ourselves. I do not think that I like resolutions very much, why should I choose to limit myself. I guess I could always choose some open ended ideas, things that there is no way I could screw up, but then that goes against that whole idea as well.....so where do I go from here?
I just want to live, love, laugh, eat, see, dance, enjoy, cry a little - but for small things. I know that at some point I may encounter loss, pain, damage...and I hope to be prepared for such things. I hope to remember that to grow, sometimes I have to hurt. I hope to see beyond that pain, and know that 'this too, shall pass'. I want to grow as a person, learn something knew, let go of something I need no longer. I want to see things through wide eyes, not a narrow mind. I want to wake up next to the man I love, to fall asleep to the sound of his heart beat. I want to hear the pitter patter of my little Moey's feet and he follows faithfully behind me. I want to see my friends love and be loved.
Okay, so I have decided to make a couple goals - not a resolution - but a couple goals:
1. hone my food storage skills
can better and more - enough to make it through a season without having to buy
2. create more to sell in my etsy shop - and to be a better promoter of my own talent
make enough to do more than just break even
3. be healthier. **Now I know this is something that so many people say, but to I am not setting any weight limits or new sizes, just to eat better and be healthier.**
Alright, that is enough for 2012. I wish to never, ever limit myself again. I am one tiny person in the gigantic world. My life is limitless. Oh wait, one more - less facebook. I seriously spend way too much time there. There is so much the Internet has to offer, I need to check it all out.
For those of you reading this....I have started a new blog as well. www.myrentalmyhome.blogger.com
I am attempting to provide a blog with real information. I love my venting post here, my place to share with my friends, but I want to kind of keep that separate from income opportunities. I am going to be posting about craft projects, home DIY stuff, recipes - all kinds of life things. So I am asking as a friend, check it out, subscribe if you would like and pass it on if you would like to even more. Thank you, to all of you or maybe just the one person who reads these postings. I feel better each time I am able to put my feelings and life our into the universe - or at least the Internet. I watched a Dharma and Greg one time where Dharma cupped her hands close to her mouth, whispered into them what she wanted to let go, then she opened her hands and raised them to the sky, as if to let them fly away - away, they were gone, never to return. That's how I feel on here sometimes, and at other times, like I am being held accountable.
Whatever it is - I like it. I am not giving up on this blog, just adding to my crazy life a little more.
Enjoy my friends, we only get one chance, make it count!
So the beginning of a new year is supposed to be the time that we set all these goals and limits for ourselves. I do not think that I like resolutions very much, why should I choose to limit myself. I guess I could always choose some open ended ideas, things that there is no way I could screw up, but then that goes against that whole idea as well.....so where do I go from here?
I just want to live, love, laugh, eat, see, dance, enjoy, cry a little - but for small things. I know that at some point I may encounter loss, pain, damage...and I hope to be prepared for such things. I hope to remember that to grow, sometimes I have to hurt. I hope to see beyond that pain, and know that 'this too, shall pass'. I want to grow as a person, learn something knew, let go of something I need no longer. I want to see things through wide eyes, not a narrow mind. I want to wake up next to the man I love, to fall asleep to the sound of his heart beat. I want to hear the pitter patter of my little Moey's feet and he follows faithfully behind me. I want to see my friends love and be loved.
Okay, so I have decided to make a couple goals - not a resolution - but a couple goals:
1. hone my food storage skills
can better and more - enough to make it through a season without having to buy
2. create more to sell in my etsy shop - and to be a better promoter of my own talent
make enough to do more than just break even
3. be healthier. **Now I know this is something that so many people say, but to I am not setting any weight limits or new sizes, just to eat better and be healthier.**
Alright, that is enough for 2012. I wish to never, ever limit myself again. I am one tiny person in the gigantic world. My life is limitless. Oh wait, one more - less facebook. I seriously spend way too much time there. There is so much the Internet has to offer, I need to check it all out.
For those of you reading this....I have started a new blog as well. www.myrentalmyhome.blogger.com
I am attempting to provide a blog with real information. I love my venting post here, my place to share with my friends, but I want to kind of keep that separate from income opportunities. I am going to be posting about craft projects, home DIY stuff, recipes - all kinds of life things. So I am asking as a friend, check it out, subscribe if you would like and pass it on if you would like to even more. Thank you, to all of you or maybe just the one person who reads these postings. I feel better each time I am able to put my feelings and life our into the universe - or at least the Internet. I watched a Dharma and Greg one time where Dharma cupped her hands close to her mouth, whispered into them what she wanted to let go, then she opened her hands and raised them to the sky, as if to let them fly away - away, they were gone, never to return. That's how I feel on here sometimes, and at other times, like I am being held accountable.
Whatever it is - I like it. I am not giving up on this blog, just adding to my crazy life a little more.
Enjoy my friends, we only get one chance, make it count!
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